MeMeMe.

It’s my birthday and I’ll eat Ben&Jerry’s, IHOP and sushi if I want to....

Mon, 02 Aug 2010 06:37:21 -0400

It’s my birthday and I’ll eat Ben&Jerry’s, IHOP and sushi if I want to. I’ll also drink all of the boys under the table and take a nap because I’m still hungover from last night’s festivities. I’m getting old!

New girl crush: Lucy Hale, I want to be you. Or be with you....

Sat, 17 Jul 2010 23:13:08 -0400

New girl crush: Lucy Hale, I want to be you. Or be with you. Whatever. Or just give me all of your clothes. Or I’ll just sit here and stare you at. Yeah, yeah, creepy, I know.

My school [ex-school? FIDM WHYYY? I MISS YOUUU] has an amazing...

Fri, 02 Jul 2010 15:31:52 -0400

My school [ex-school? FIDM WHYYY? I MISS YOUUU] has an amazing Marilyn Monroe-printed mini dress on display in the library. It’s adorable. I want it. I contemplated stealing it off the mannequin more than once. True story.

"These words are my diary, screaming out loud, and I know that you’ll use them however you want..."

Tue, 29 Jun 2010 03:42:00 -0400

““These words are my diary, screaming out loud, and I know that you’ll use them however you want to.””

- One of my teachers told us this: “Own what you say. If it’s something amazing, be proud that you said it. If it’s something stupid, laugh it off. If it’s something rude, explain why you said something hurtful. No matter what it is, own it. If someone challenges it, say ‘Yeah, I said that, and this is why.’ But don’t run from what you say, because you said it, and it’s out there.”

I was in awe of this advice when she gave it to us. I think it’s something we all need to do, and moreso, I feel that I can honestly say that I do own the words that come out of my mouth; I say what I want, when I want to, and I can back up my words when it’s necessary.

So right now I wish someone would own their words. Grow some balls and tell me who wrote what they did. Stop using anonymous and fake names and say what you want to say. Because that’s how you feel, so why are you hiding yourself? I would never put an anonymous alias to anything I have to say.

And if the fact that I have a gap in my teeth bothers you so much, don’t talk to me. But if it does, I think you have bigger problems than my orthodontia. I think you need to find some kind of happiness inside of yourself or, at the very least, a fucking hobby. Because I would never—absolutely NEVER—go onto a hate site with the intention of posting pictures to hurt someone else. That thought wouldn’t even pop into my head.

You know what else I’m not doing? I’m not writing hurtful things about anyone on the Internet. I’m not calling anyone and saying mean things. I’m not spitting on them, or dumping my drinks on their backs, or calling them names as they walk past me. I’m hanging out with my friends and I’m graduating college and I’m starting a career and I’m traveling and I’m repairing my relationship and I’m not hurting ANYONE. So stop trying to hurt me, and stop hurting yourself, because in a few years this will all be very embarrassing for you.

Or at least, I’d think so. I’d be mortified if, at the age of 23, I pulled shit like this. But maybe I’m just weird? Weird, gap-toothed and fat, right? Fat butterfaced essay-writing gappy bitch, that’s me.

Sidenote: Next time you want to use something in an argument against me, steer away from the gap. It’s been there since my teeth came in; that was many years ago, my friends. To be blunt, my family has a lot of money. That money could have been put towards braces if I wanted. I don’t care about the gap. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t hurt me in any way and hey, guess what? It doesn’t hurt you either. If you don’t like it, don’t look at me. And if the only thing you have against me is a gap in my front teeth, then I think my life’s going pretty good.

Anyway. I’m sure you’ll all shit on me for writing this. Hence the song lyrics; they were always a favorite. I guess NONE of you wrote it, right? That shit just popped up on that site all by itself, because NOBODY has enough guts to say, “Yeah, that was me.”

So feel good knowing that you did something to hurt someone who didn’t do anything to hurt you. That isn’t sarcasm—I want you to feel good about it. I want all of you to feel amazing about continously picking on someone who keeps their mouth shut and their head down and who, at the end of the day, didn’t do anything to deserve it. And don’t bother using the whole, “If you didn’t care then why’d you write all that?” line, because this is the first time I’ve ever acknowledged any of the shit I get on a regular basis and it’ll be the last. So chill out! And get the fuck off my page =]

In the meantime, while you’re all still following my every Internet move and going out of your way to talk to me when you see me out […even though you don’t care about me, right? I’m nothing to you, right? Oops…not true], I’ll be over here with my gap and my fat and actually having enough of a life and enough of a heart to not try and hurt other people to mask my own insecurities.

I guess I’m done now. And I hope you’re not shocked by how long this is—I am an ‘essay writing bitch,’ after all.

<3

IMHO opinion this is one of the best performances by Pink, ever....

Tue, 29 Jun 2010 00:21:00 -0400

IMHO opinion this is one of the best performances by Pink, ever. I think she looks beautiful and I guess it doesn’t hurt that this is my absolute most favorite song by her. Plus she sounds amazing as always; that woman can SING. And she’s even better live, if that’s possible.

I don’t care much for her singing voice, but Katy Perry...

Mon, 28 Jun 2010 23:54:21 -0400

I don’t care much for her singing voice, but Katy Perry sure is pretty. This picture makes me think it hurt bad when she fell from heaven.

I heart anything to do with birdcages. And this room is super...

Mon, 28 Jun 2010 23:44:46 -0400

I heart anything to do with birdcages. And this room is super pretty. I want to lay on that bed and write poems all goddamn day. I mean…I don’t write poetry, but if that were my room I’d totally start.

I belive in this.

Sun, 20 Jun 2010 03:17:00 -0400

I belive in this.

Aw.

Fri, 18 Jun 2010 16:32:06 -0400

It’s only day two but I miss school already. Sitting at graduation made me feel sad as I looked around at the people next to me because I know I’m going to miss being stuck in Visual Presentation class for 6 hours with them and laughing about a certain teacher’s nastiness. I never thought I’d enjoy school so much!

YAY.

Thu, 17 Jun 2010 02:05:10 -0400

i just graduated! and it feels really good. it hasn’t hit me yet that i finally have a degree in visual communications…but it will. for now, i just want to sleep, because i haven’t in 3 days—but it was worth it. the whole thing was. FIDM was the best decision ive ever made.

So I sat next to Kiowa Gordon [Embry Call from the Twilight...

Mon, 07 Jun 2010 17:54:00 -0400

So I sat next to Kiowa Gordon [Embry Call from the Twilight series] during the MTV awards last night. I was between Joanna and Amber, when Amber got re-located to another seat, and Kiowa took her spot for the rest of the show. We talked. He laughed at my joke—well, it wasn’t a joke, I was really making fun of him for knowing all the words to that little tiger song from The Hangover. But whatever.

I also spotted Alex Meraz 10 feet away; he was one of the first to show up. Five seconds after I saw him, Joanna told Amber and I that Mark Salling [aka Puck from Glee aka I LOVE HIMMM] was directly behind us. So that was magical. More later. It’s nap time. Never-ending celebrity sightings, meeting the guys from LMFAO, sitting at the edge of the stage, and NOT getting shot at our hotel has worn me out. PEACE.

If still being obsessed with Elvis is wrong then I don’t...

Fri, 04 Jun 2010 21:10:00 -0400

If still being obsessed with Elvis is wrong then I don’t wanna be right.

If I could be anywhere right now it would be at the...

Thu, 03 Jun 2010 15:54:25 -0400

If I could be anywhere right now it would be at the Giant’s Causeway, my most favorite place. It’s been a bad, bad week for me. I need to pick myself back up, ASAP.

"Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, it’s at the end of your arm, as you get older, remember..."

Wed, 02 Jun 2010 13:53:08 -0400

“Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, it’s at the end of your arm, as you get older, remember you have another hand: The first is to help yourself, the second is to help others.”

- Audrey Hepburn (via iamtea-rriffic) (via quote-book)

I graduate from FIDM in 3 weeks. I go to the MTV Movie Awards [not the VMAs, I just can’t stop...

Tue, 25 May 2010 23:38:53 -0400

I graduate from FIDM in 3 weeks. I go to the MTV Movie Awards [not the VMAs, I just can’t stop saying/writing/texting that cuz its in my head!] in 2. Until then I’ve got weddings and parties and all kinds of other cool stuff to attend. Life is fun right now!

It’s been a year ago today but I’ll miss my dog...

Sun, 23 May 2010 17:22:54 -0400

It’s been a year ago today but I’ll miss my dog forever. Such a good girl. Losing a pet is horrible, especially when it’s one that is as amazing as Marley was.

"It’s too late to make it right—I probably wouldn’t if I could."

Mon, 17 May 2010 05:30:10 -0400

““It’s too late to make it right—I probably wouldn’t if I could.”

- The Dixie Chicks, Not Ready To Make Nice

OMFG. I would crap my wetsuit.

Sun, 16 May 2010 17:42:46 -0400

OMFG. I would crap my wetsuit.

"You women, if things aren’t complicated for you, you become suspicious."

Sun, 16 May 2010 17:41:41 -0400

“You women, if things aren’t complicated for you, you become suspicious.”

- from, “Fistful of Dollars” (submitted via noelleskowron) (via quote-book)

—This is very true for me…and that makes me sad. When he appeared to be perfect, instead of enjoying that time and reveling in how amazingly, flawlessly good it was, I instead focused on the fact that nobody is perfect and that soon enough I’d find out what his secret was. And now I know, and I wish I could go back but I can’t.

"I know there are plenty of fish in the sea, but I only want THAT fish."

Sat, 15 May 2010 18:56:13 -0400

“I know there are plenty of fish in the sea, but I only want THAT fish.””